"Do not live to please"

Nicole, 21. This blog is body love, good food, exercise, and for myself. A creative at university, love exploring, cooking, and being wrapped in a cocoon of blankets with a hot coffee. Learning to love the skin I'm in.

24lbs lost


MOTIVATION URRRAAAGHH. I’VE FALLEN INTO A SLUMP BECAUSE I HAVE FOUND MYSELF WAITING AROUND FOR OTHER PEOPLE (person, one person) AND LIVING IN EXCESS AND HE’S LET ME AND I’VE REALISED THAT I DON’T LIKE IT. I mean, I love it, but I can’t live like this. I’ve put on 5lbs since he arrived two weeks ago and I’m losing the person that I am and becoming nothing but an attachment to him. And when he goes back to America I’ll be left a half piece.

So as of right now, I’ve got to gather everything together again and pursue everything that I love. I can see that he sees that I’m slipping from myself and, frankly, it’s unattractive, and I don’t like myself for it. I want to be my whole self and get back on my path. I see myself fighting for my health, reaching for my goals, working hard for my degree, working hard to set myself up for a happy and free life when I leave uni in a year.